Monday, January 21, 2008

The Great Walk

Moses led his people out of Egypt through the Red sea and into a vast desert.
Am no Moses. I just walked from Bagumpet to YMCA. Thats about 3.1 Kms. Took me about 40 mins i think. There isn't any real reason why i did it.
Guess i was just bored.

Hate Me

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you loved me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me? It is I that wanted space



Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
For you
For you
For you

Sunday, January 13, 2008

Life-Death

The following is the "about me:" i wrote for orkut......

"i luv plane rides, but hate waiting at the terminal.

i luv ice scream, but hardly ever eat it as am afraid of catching a cold.

i luv to dance, but i don't cos i suck at it.

i luv solitude, but yearn to be with someone.

someday, i would luv to bungee jump, but i mostly wouldn't cos am afraid of heights.

i luv watching movies, but hate to watch alone.

i luv to sleep, but am afraid of oversleeping

i like to get my hands dirty, but i think am allergic to dust.

i used to eat a lot of chocolates, i stopped because it hurts my teeth.

i luv rock, but dislike heavy metal."

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...this was few months ago.....
Today i realize that am going to die. So if i don't do all the things am afraid of doing now, i would provably never get another change.

Thursday, December 27, 2007

DNDC

Don't 'K'now Don't Care

Certain things i dont know about and dont care to know about.

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

New Year's Eve

I'll be spending new year's eve in a train (from 31/12/07, 6 pm to 1/1/08, 5 am) ....
...How sad is that?

Thursday, December 20, 2007

Dont hit your head on your way out!

I have been using the same entrance/exit of my work place building for the last 2 years now.
Its nothing more than a big glass door with a handle.
Yesterday, as usual I was coming out of the building, I was walking at full speed…..then the unthinkable happened…. BANG….
I slammed right into the glass door. I have seen this happen on TV several times and I used to think, man, how can people be so dumb and not see what’s right in front of them.(though its transparent, u can still actually see it)
I was disoriented for a while. A security guard came running and held the door open for me. When I came to my senses, I gave the guy a silly grin, thanked him and was on my way again.

I am pretty conscious of my surroundings but don’t know what came over me yesterday.
I still have a bump on my forehead.

Friday, November 23, 2007

GADDAMMIT..

U know what my problem is.... i day dream.....every single FRICKIN' second....hence i cannot concentrate....GADDAMMIT!!!!